It's a good day!

It's a good day for so very many reasons! First and foremost it's my hubby's and my 10 year wedding anniversary! Crazy how fast that flies past! And it's funny how the things that are so perfect for me about him are things I never looked for and never knew I wanted or needed are the most priceless attributes! I definitely was so very blessed the day he walked into my life! It's been an amazing 10 years! This will be a big year for us! We celebrate 10 years. We will be having our 5th (and final) baby. And we'll be buying our 3rd (and hopefully final) house. Pretty momentous events on the agenda for the coming months!

Phew- I've taken such a long break from regular blogging that I don't even know where to start. And knowing myself this will be far from a regular occurrence... But well I've loved in the past being able to print my blog books and have them to use as photo albums and memory books...

So I guess I'll start with today. I feel like I'm slowly coming out of a fog. I'm slowly turning back into myself. You know how some people get horrible postpartum depression. The kind where they go kinda crazy and don't think clearly and don't act like themselves? Well I get that but it's during my first 14-18 weeks of pregnancy. I go crazy. I'm mean. I'm irrational. I'm super lazy and exhausted. I'm sick. I'm also crazy. With my past 3 pregnancies I've craved miscarriage. To the point I'm jealous of people who miscarry. I sometimes even have super crazy thoughts of how if I fell just right down a set of stairs I could make myself lose the baby. YES! I acknowledge it's completely unhealthy and so very wrong. But there ya go- on the table, black and white. I go crazy! Thankfully I'm almost clear of that stage of this pregnancy. And it feels so wonderful to start feeling like myself again. I want to listen to music again and get stuff done and snuggle my sweet wonderful kiddos! I want to go on dates with my husband and actually be nice to him again. (I think that's why dan could have been done having kids at 3. I think my pregnancies are so much harder on him then I realize. He's such an amazing man to put up with it and to let me have 5 of these crazy first trimesters! I sure love that man!!!!)

Anyways- I'm feeling like me again and life is good. I've got a good routine going, I go to the gym a few times a week right after I drop the boys off at school and the girls LOVE the kids club/daycare at the Y. And I have a few friends from the ward that also go at the same time so it's workout/social hour most days. It's been really good for me to have a regular routine and to get that kind of regular exercise. I think it's made me be a little less crazy with this pregnancy then with some of my others. It's amazing what endorphins can do. :)

So as for Dan- he's really liking his new position at work here in vegas. He works for and with some really great people! He keeps plenty busy but gets to keep regular hours. He leaves at 7:30 and is home by 5:30 every day which is wonderful for me. :) We are very blessed to have him have such a great job! He's still got some car projects he works on. Nothing hard core right now. You should see the Thing though. She's gorgeous!!! He put new seats and a new top on her and it's crazy what a difference it made! I just LOVE that car! He's also got a vw Ghia out back that he tells me he will fix up for me someday! I say if it can have an a/c it'll be my dream car!!! I think it'll be so good for him when we have a 3 car garage so he can keep a car project in there that's more accessible for him to tinker on.

Scott is in 3rd grade this year and was so proud when he made the A-B honor roll this last semester! We were really proud of him too! He's such a smart sweet guy! He's grown up a ton since we moved to Vegas. He's an amazing helper for me and a great big brother. We went through a rough patch a few months back with him and found a great therapist that really helped us learn some coping strategies and better ways to process and deal with emotions. I think all this moving we've done in the past 7 years has been really hard on him. More so then we thought. But we're working through it and hopefully once we get into our house we won't have to move possibly ever again! He's just coming up to that awkward place where he's slowly starting to realize he's not a little kid anymore but he still likes to be a little kid but is starting to like more big kid things... It's been so neat to see him hitting all these new stages. Wanting to watch more adult type movies and less cartoons. Wanting to hang out with the adults more than playing out with the kids sometimes. He's got such a neat spirit in him. I can't wait to see what he becomes as he gets older!

Brock is still so very Brock. Just so full of silly quirkiness it's thoroughly entertaining. He's so sweet and tender too. He's a total peacemaker 90% of the time. But he kinda likes to be in charge when it comes to games and he loves to tell people what to do. I think he has a touch of ocd or something that makes him want to be in control of odd things and have them just so... But man is he fun! He's doing great in kindergarten. I really need to buckle down with him and really give him an academic push- I've just been kind of mia. Anyways. He's awesome. He still loves to play with friends and loves animals. He really wants some pets. Like maybe some lizards. He has a SERIOUS serious phobia of bees. He thinks that the lizards will eat any flying bugs that come in our house so that he won't have to be scared of them. He's a problem solver that one. He talks the most about missing utah and his friends and things we did there. But he loves vegas and swimming and family so it evens out. :)

Kara is all girl! She loves to play girl things and be dressed up and wear necklaces. She is such a sweet fun thing. She loves to be silly and funny. She loves to laugh and twirl and perform for people. She has been doing speech therapy this year and it's been fun for her. She has this lisp/ tongue thrust thing that we're trying to remedy. She is a little bit more drama then the boys. It's a girl thing I guess from what I hear. She can go from fine to dissolving into tears at the drop of a hat! Over the silliest things too! I'm in for it between her and molly! Yikes! It's so much fun to have girls though. To do their hair and put them in froufy skirts and stuff. It's pretty awesome. Boys have their own super fun things but there's just something special about little girls! ;)

Molly is a character. She is so smart! She talks so well for a 2 year old. So clear and so so many words. It's probably from all the tv she watches. I swear she would watch tv all day every day if I would let her. But she loves to play too. She's been playing better and better with kara lately. They get out the mermaids or the ponies or the stuffed animals and make them a house and pretend they are sleeping or playing and it's awesome. She's so snuggly and sweet! I just love this age. Where she can communicate better and can do some things herself but she is still teeny and still loves me all the time. She loves nursery and loves her friends. She gets separation anxiety still randomly like when she doesn't' want to get babysat or when shes really tired but most of the time she does great. Her cousin Maddy is the same age as her and those two are either bff's or mortal enemies and most of the time lately it's enemies. They steal each others' toys and push and hit and can just be awful to each other. But then the next minute they will love and hug and kiss each other and share like champs. It's a hoot. Molly sure can be fiesty. But most of the time she is just mellow and silly and sweet. She has the sweetest giggle ever!!! I just wish I could bottle it up and keep it forever!

Baby #5 is growing fine as far as I know. I'm coming up on 16 weeks which means we'll be able to find out boy or girl in a month!! We didn't find out the sex with molly and it was so fun to not find out until she came out. But I just need to feel more connected and excited for this baby. I think it'll feel so much more real to me if I know the gender. So yeah we'll know soon enough! And I'm so excited! I still can't regularly feel the baby move. I thought I've felt it a few times but I'm just so much more padded this time around I'm sure it'll be another few weeks before it's a regular occurrence.

As for the house= we just got price approval from the bank so we should get an approval letter in the next couple weeks and then we hit the 30 day financing till close period! It's insane to finally be this close to ending this process!!!! It's crazy how it's all falling into place so neatly all of the sudden. We had been shopping for houses more in the 225-275 range and it just kept not working out. But then we stumbled upon this one that was listed at 180 and still basically fit all our criteria and it's all just clicked since then. We're getting the house for 195 and it's a 3000 sq foot house on a 7500 sq foot lot. so the lot is def not as big as we thought we wanted but it's all just right for us. Enough space and set up perfect for everything we wanted just on a smaller scale! It's like having a blank canvas to do everything we want and at this price we have the money to do it! It's gonna be so good for us!!! So in proabably less than 2 months we will be home owners once again! :)

Well there's a little update on us for now. Maybe I'll pop in again and keep up the updates. And maybe I won't. I guess we'll just have to wait in suspense! hee hee....